I’ve been having an extreme case of writer’s block as of late. All of the writer’s block manuals tell you that it’s probably just anxiety over the fear of writing. I’ll take it a step further and say it’s the fear that your writing sucks or will be judged by people who are more talented who will know that it sucks.
Anxiety is a big part of my life. Most can’t tell or just don’t know, but my anxiety is expressed through my dark passenger who throws at me a million and one reasons as to why I could potentially fail at something. For fear of failing, I never even get started, and I’m out of the race before it’s begun. This blows me. But I digress.
How to get over the writer’s block, is the question. I’ve come up with a few things:
- Identify and eliminate the cause of my anxiety over writing
- Do some writing exercises to inspire the words to just flow
- Write about my anxiety
Obviously, I’m already doing Number 3.
As for Number 1, I think my anxiety stems from a couple things. Obviously the desire to be perfect, particularly in my writing, and knowing inherently that I will never be. But maybe also that I haven’t written or had to be creative or done anything prose related in years. The last thing that I wrote, outside of reports or group projects in college (which were a cinch), was in high school. And at 24 I feel a little removed from that person. So how do I pick it all back up and get back into a rhythm of good writing. Like really good. Like really great because I want to start selling manuscripts, articles, short stories, novellas, whatever.
I’m also worried about money, which is why I want to begin writing. Some may ask why a person with a grown up job would need to be worried about money. Hmpf. If only you knew. Doesn’t matter how much you make. We’ve all got to pay bills — some of us support our families. And Maryland asks for a lot of freaking taxes. But my bf says that I can’t get jacked in to worry too much about money, and I agree. I’ve had times when I was a big-baller-shot-caller and used to trick off on ALL my friends (see my freshmen year of college). And I’ve had times when I was dead broke, barely making enough to keep up with my overdraft fees. Because of this continual cycle of having, and have not-ing if you will, I now know that eventually I’ll have again. Not today, but possibly tomorrow and for that reason, you can’t put your energy into worrying about it.
But it would be nice to have a lil today– I’m not even gonna front.
That being said, I’ve addressed the issues and recognized ways to tackle them. And that’s where I believe Number 2 steps in. This blog is a series of my own writing exercises, but I’ve also researched a good number of other ideas. You may see some of them following this post. So get ready. I actually hope you stick around to read them, whenever they happen.
Well that was therapeutic. Next step: write, write, write!